Now I'm Free:
It is amazing how an illness can be a cure in itself.
The temperments, and experiances that are begotten not only reshape one's worldview but acknowledge the possibility of having another (in the first place). How far I've come from my own shell yet paradoxically find myself having returned to "what was closer" all along. Amazing how my frames of references have been shattered and rebuilt time and time again. It won't be far-fetched for me to say that the very sad act of seeing what was a mere construct, destroyed - can be a manifestation of Truth itself.
It is impossible to formulate a universal reconciliation of reason, and other possibilies; for doing so would be to tread or more appropriatly - step over the very opposing realms that attempt to diminish or destroy the other. Be pragmatic, let each one have 'their' share, and move on with what ought to be really concerning you...
Will the sum total of experiances matter or will it be a single moment. Was the universe eternal or created; will it end in some final act, or will it morph into something else, did we really come from single point or do we fall into the trap of infinite regression - who knows ? Will your current act, gurantee the consequences, or will the premonition, turn out to be some conspiracy that you willingly duped yourself into ?
When I'll come to know the answers, none of this will matter, because by then I'll realize it was not the answers that I was seeking, but an easy way out. Frame not the frames, but embrace the paradoxes of life.
Only now do you submit, but ironically, now you are free.